my surface no ppl saw im sad and unhappy

im still laughing  every day

except laughing i jau doing my revision

but no 1 saw inside my heart

my heart are hurt deeply

very deep the wound

but i know it only

haiz

now i just use 1 way 2 cover my sadness

thats study

books can cover all my sadness

 

 

another things is

nex wed graduate loooo

thats is also 1 of my sadness

i need 2 leave all my friends and have a new life

but i really hope can see some of my friends at kl with me

but the number sure little

so i think i will cry at my graduate ceremony at the cacat school hall

so some1 plz prepare us some tissue paper

for me and friends !!!

this design i just do 2 day i will print it out later 

and give 2 all my friends as graduate peasant !!! 

who wants it also can take from me

2 day i feel less stress

wahaha

2 day i go c my counseling teacher for help in my further study

2 moro i need 2 c her again i still need her help she realy help me so much

she help me call 2 the college that offer my course then ask about my qualification and many many information i sit with her about 1:30 hour 2 know more about my future she teach me how 2 go true this road

how 2 choose college

and many many more

i LOVE u so much PUAN SITI (nick-SITI NORHARIZA)and u r a leng lui malay hehe

**DUN MISSUNDERSTOOD MY LOVE IS NOT HAVE RELATIONSHIP WITH HER ITS JUST NORMAL LOVE**

2 day still got 1 happy things is

i go 2 suan hotel de education fair with my ex GF hahaha

so happy

when we step in suen hotel de door she ask me y i bring her come open hotel room ,,,then i answer her,,, y dun 1 here ar here 3star woh ipoh 2nd best hotel woh ,,,,,then she laught till sot dy

when we out suan hotel ist so heavy rain but our 2 de car also park at parade de rooftop we stand infront of suan hotel then the rain din stop at all then we decide 2 run across the big road 2 parade wahaha we 2 ppl RUNNING UNDER THE RAIN both of us de body wet dy haha  but happy

keke but dunnoe still have this chance 2 happy or not ler mayb this is the last time b4 i leaving IPOH but she told me she also leaving ipoh nex year but i will leaving b4 nex year hope i can meet her at kl

jin forever my beloved

我应不应该走这条路呢

这条路100% 会比别人辛苦几倍

我会不会浪费我父母的钱如果达不到目标

这不是一笔少数目

这是我梦想。。。我应不应该放气

我连可不可以就读这一科都不知道

我又没有physic 又没有add maths

人家收不收我进去就读都是个问题

haiz都是烦字和数不清的问题

今晚我肯定就睡不了觉了

明天我一定要去找我校的扑倒老师好好坐下谈谈

希望他能帮我找到我的一条路

ITS an UNLUCKLY MONTH 

that day i has hurt a gal 2 day i again hurt another gal 

wat the fucking month is that 

all works not smooth 

friendship also  break 

wat the hack is happening 

its fucking somewhere 

im fucking hard no mood this few days 

fuck 

fuck 

fuck

just feel everyday r fucking day 

no other feeling 

FUCK

BM:66 B4

BI:68 B4

BC:34 8E

MT:59 C5

SJ:15 G9

ACC:33 E8

EKO:77 A2

PM:40 D7

SC:83 A1

TIME/DAY     MON        TUE        WED       THU        FRI          SAT           SUN 

6:00am           w               w              w               w              slp             slp               slp

7:30am        s/hs           s/hs         s/hs         s/hs          hs/on9      w/on9       w/on9

1:30pm        on9/e         0n9/e      on9/e      tt               tt             on9/hs     on9/hs

3:00pm       tt                on9/hs    tt             tt               tt                 on9/hs    on9/hs

5:30pm       tt                tt              tt             e/on9       e/on9         on9           on9                 

8:00pm      hs/on9      hs/on9     on9          hs/on9     tt                on9/hs     on9/hs

11:30pm     slp              slp            slp           slp             slp              on9            on9

hs=house study

tt=tution

on9=online

slp=sleeep

e=exersice 

w=wake up

s=school

I MUST FOLLOW THIS PERSONAL TIME TABLE TILL SPM !!

我不知道为何我哭了

男人不流泪可是我做不到

我不是男人

想起我自己的缺点数都数不清

真痛心 哭了出来 

好久没哭过了 

哭的感觉好舒服

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

写不出东西了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

haiz 2 day make a gal more sad 

she already sad de la y my stpd mought lagi tajam hurt her more make her more sad de

stpd mought stpd mought 

i din say wrong  i always hurt ppl !!!!!!!!!!

my ex scolded me last time is true 

haiz fuck me !!

i not clear wat happening 2 ppl y should i talk things 

y should i talk some stpd things 

am i stpd ??

my ans is yes 

IM STPD 

& NO BRAIN DURING TALKING 

how i can change it 

i wanna change 

but i dun 1 change till dun like 2 talk 

i wan talk something propely not stpd things 

i realy hurted many ppl 

so my friends r getting less and less 

i realy dun hope 1 day i no more friend 

friend is inportant 

INPORTANT do i know wat mens !!!!

haiz 

hope i understand 

i realy so sad about my bad things 

haiz

IF NEX TIME I HURT PPL AGAIN I WILL GIVE MY FACE 2 HER and  SLAP ME 

untill she things that she is happy back 

1 minute sad 1 minute continue slap 

slap till bengkak dy nvm just slap till she happy 

ish BAD BOY !!!BAD BOY !!!

haiz same things happen the day b4 

my laptop at same time 12 something am kena the same virus again but this time i know the virus come again i fast fast go off my destop de switch not shut down cos scare that also kena then i so tired so i sleep till this morning wake up only fommet it 

i cleaver dy leh !!!

kaka

then 2 day i installed my dream dj software with lisen wahaha VIRTUAL DJ u r here for me i must learn as good as i can i wan call my 2 sifu teach me remix DJ DANZ is from SG8 ipoh

i wan learn dj remix i like de song hahaha then become DJ DEZ 1 day

wao my friend argue wif my another friend ar 

i also dunnoe how 2 cheer them cos i dunnoe their story about the argue 

haiz 

bad bad 

hope they 2 will good back la 

cos they 2 r a pair of good friends 

i dun hope 2 c their relationship break just from 1 argue about a AJUMAH 

i think that AJUMAH is jealous they 2 r best friend gua this i guess only

hehe 

yesterday night when i chatting wif friends suddenly my com hang dy then auto install something then i cant click cancle then ones finish install that babi things jau whole computer die dy can on already i so angry cos thats is a virus okay suan lo that time is 12:++ am then i imediatly fommet my com when i fommet starts i think wan go 2 my desttop 2 on9 when i saw my destop turn off dy then i turn it on then till window jau off again then i knoe that com also kena the same virus i more angry that time wanna kick the cpu then a friend sms ask me 2 clamp down but i cant control then jau kick the cpu dy then finish my laptop fommet terus fommet destop then fommet till 7 something in the morning only finish whole body so slim then sleep till 12 something give my sis scold till wake up dy cos i fommet dy the destop her game and every things gone dy ok is over talk some happy things 2 day is my friend michoo=DAN WONG bday i and AB plain buy 1 cake for her as a prasent then i go buy dy whole parade so many malays no place parking then i go upstars parking but upstars also full then saw i place not parking i just park there and rush down and buy the cake that im 1st time drive my car at the pusing pusing 2 the upstair parking walao so scok hehe

then we celebrate wif bday gal at chatter corner wahaha blow candal eat cake wahaha then we at 7 11 take dy 1 pic but not nice

so ugly